As of yesterday, I am 35 weeks pregnant. It is September. The end of September. 3 months until 2013. Really?
Sometimes it is sad how fast time goes.
Sometimes it brings me peace knowing the faster time goes, the sooner we will be with our Savior in Heaven. No longer in this world that is accompanied by heartache, loss, and disappointment.
Yesterday we learned of the death of a friend. She was a cancer survivor, and had just given birth a week prior to her 4th child. She died from a blood clot. We are so heartbroken for her family.
After a day like yesterday, your perspective changes. The way you look at your husband and your children is different than the minute before you heard the news. We work so hard to keep an eternal perspective, stay focused on what's above. We know we have to work our faith muscle in order to say we have faith.
Life on earth is hard, painful at times. We know a storm is coming. We aren't sure when it will hit. We aren't given our raincoat and umbrella until right before the rain hits our head. God is very clear about that. Our grace is promised, but we are not given grace today for next week's problems. Manna comes on a per needed basis. If we had a 'tap' to grace we were in control of, where would our faith come in?
Children expose a part of your heart you do not know exist until they are born. Then, you understand the true meaning of worry. But, there is also the joy. A small glimpse of heaven. If I love my children this much, the love our Father has for us is truly beyond my understanding. We are not meant to fully understand Him. We are only called to be in constant pursuit of Him. Learning more of his character, who he is, that we are created in his image, only makes me trust Him more.
I am so thankful for my Savior. My Heavenly Father. I am blessed beyond what I deserve.
